Confused on what to do with my relationship - desperate for advice :(?

hiya, your first love was just that. first love.your second love was more,you were glued together and know each other inside and out.he sounds like your true love.your first love will always be your first love, very rarely you marry your first love,b ut you never forget them either.you were more or less married to magnet.you live together,did every together.i believe if he will forgive you 100%, then you are meant to be with him.he is the one for you.xx